Okay, I haven’t posted in a long while. I have felt very busy with the little ones and dad’s deployment. It always seems that I can never get ahead of the game. Most of you saw my sincere worry about staying home with my children. Well you will be happy to know, I am no longer worried. I have my military drill over the next two weeks. I am only two days in and I miss my children terribly, I don’t want to go back to work, and my children don’t want me to leave them. Yes!!!( wineymomma was right) I would rather be home with my children. Believe me; this is a huge shock for me too! I have always considered myself a career woman. I like worked. I liked the challenge. I liked the reward. (Lets be honest “mom” is many times a thankless job). So I worked myself up the ladder. Very successfully I might add. I was very proud. I really thought the kids might be doing better in daycare. They came home with great “Art” work. The read lots of stories, had a schedule, went for naps daily, and had other friends their age. I was SURE this was the best place for them; not home with me! My mom even agreed.
Then today I returned from work and both little ones ran to each other, they missed their mom but their bond for each other was stronger than I had ever seen it. Daddy’s buddy was full of bad behavior all night and my princess won’t sleep without me in her room. Then I realized, my discipline and guidance has made them secure and now they are very unsure of what is going on. Security. There are so many times in my life where I wish I could be secure. Secure in my relationships, secure in my jobs, secure in my faith. I am giving my children something that will mean so much more than their art work and daycare friends. I’m kinda successful at being a mom too 
Man that feels great!
