How did we get here? May 16, 2008

Frustraion! I am full of frustraion! I called one of my best friends this morning to vent all this frustration but I still feel no better. First of all, we have an amazing church family. Since my husband has been deployed they have been more than amazing! I have gotten babysitters for my drill weekend, boys to mow my grass, they have really stepped up to help during this crazy time. So the last couple weeks in church they announced they were having a father and son campout. Anyone who did not have a “dad” to come, they would help work something out. Well, we found a “dad” to take my little man. We went shopping and got stuff for smores and packed his camping gear for his departure today. He was so excited! Last night we get a call that due to church regualations “no child can share a tent with someone that is not a parent”. To be honest, I have not told my little guy that he’s not going, I don’t know how to. How do you explain why to a 3 year old. I don’t understand it myself. How did our world get here? How have so many people done so many bad things that there is a regulation to prevent molestation of a 3yrd old boy? This hurts my heart! I am angry. Frustrated. Sad. I can’t believe this is were we are in today’s day!

Oh, if your looking for us tonight, we will be camping (probably in the back yard), making smores. I will not be totally defeated!

 

Missing you May 2, 2008

My husband. I was thinking today about how much I missed everyone when I was deployed. Now I was able to call everyone from Cuba, e-mail daily, and chat most of the time. It was hard to call my status “deployed” other than it was involuntary and I didn’t have my family there. It was still a beach and some great living quarters. So as I think about my husband in Afghanistan I can only feel pride for all he has chosen to give up to help the people of that country and provide safety to our Nation. When he asks me how my day is and I start to complain about being sick, the children being sick, the house stuff breaking, he provides positive thoughts to help me through my day. He is my strength.

Today when I woke up it was snowing. Yesterday we all got sunburns and today… snow. Since I grew up on the beach I was not at all happy about the snow, then I got a message from my honey. It was 110 deg. at it is nighttime there. He had been out working all day in the heat. And I was gonna complain about the snow. Perspective. I need to find a different perspective. I need to be his strength. I need to give back to him all those positive things he gives me everyday. No wonder he’s our hero!

I love you honey. Here’s a picture from snowy Colorado! We love you!